"Happy Mother's Day Mom"

"Happy Mother's Day"

Mom I miss you so much on this wonderful day

It is a special time to speak the words ,I've always wanted to say.

But I'm not sure you can hear me through heaven's door

I just have to let you know that ,I love you even more.

Your always in my heart and forevevr you will stay

Until we meet again on that faithful day.

So Happy Mother's day from me to you

Your the best mom in the world ,this much is true.

I can not seem to put into words how much you meant to me

You were everything a mother is trully suppose to be.

You taught me how to care and how to love

That's why I know your safe in God's arms, in heaven above.

"Written by Angela Baker" "2011

A Scary& Sad Day April27th,2011

Well on Wednesday April 27th,2011 at around 6:50 am or so ,We had some 100 mph striaght lines winds come through where we live.It caused the power to go out & we did not even realize that it was getting worse b/c we did not have any power and our weather radio did not have batteries in it.We had no power so we listened to the am/fm radio that luckily had batteries in it. We all had to pay attention to the weather that day b/c it was only gonna get worse. We live in a trailor,my husband ,myself & our lil girl .But luckily my dad lives next door &my dad has been working on building a storm pit for his trailor ,so we all went over to my dad's & watched his tv,with a generator. This was when the storms began getting a lot worse.We watched as a tornadoe hit in the county that my sister lived in Cullman County.This was the start of a devistating day in our great state of Alabama.The second tornadoe the news showed was hitting in Tuscaloosa.There were tornadoes hitting everywhere & there were some F3's,F4's, & F 5's.Our county was hit but it was a few miles from our house b/c we could see the funnel going across ,as we ran into the storm pit. We were all scared & had no clue that in our county,we would lose 14 ppl from this storm.This was the day that many tornadoes would hit our state and 1 tornadoe traveled 182 miles across the state b/c it left a scar that long across Alabama.This was a terrible day and we lost more that 250 ppl have been comfirmed in Alabama alone. And there are many people that are Missing from our state. The whole southern half of the country seemed to feel these storms but Alabama was a total disaster area. Fema has been here ,The President of the Untied States has been here, alot of political people have been here. Actor Charlie Sheen visited  and was wanting to help out to.This has been so heart wrenching for our state,and the great people who live here.My family had a few trees down & we had to do with out power for almost 5 days but we all were blessed & lucky this time.The storm was near us but spared our family & friends. I am not sure why these things happen to people.I do not think really any of us can answer that question .My heart hurts for all of the families whom have lost their loved ones,or whom have a missing person and or all those who have lost everything that they owned. This has been so traumatic for our state.The stress is intense and the tears have been pouring down.I can only keep everyone in my thoughts & prayers as they try to pick up their lives and try to move on."Please God Bless Alabama & take care of these people that have been affected & let them know ,that we will never forget ."

"How Lily Lynette Furneaux touched my life"

Well I was introduced to this story in late December,so this was only a month after what happened to Lily.I Met Lily's mother Lauren online on my face book page.We talked on the IM for a bit.She was so pleased that I did some pictures for her little angel.She was one of the strongest women I think I have ever had the pleasure of talking to.She is the most loving & sweet mother & a fantastic person all around. I admire her strength ,If only everyone could have the courage that she carries everyday. It must be so hard to grieve for your child & yet try to carry on a fight for justice at the same time. I can not even begin to imagine how she must feel,but my heart goes out to her & her whole family.They are all a great group of people,that keep their faith going strong.I am so sad that I had to meet this family ,in such a way.But I also feel very blessed to have met them & know their sweet beloved Lily's story. She is such a beautiful lil girl with one of the most magnetic smiles I have ever seen.She has these sweet beautiful brown eyes that sparkle.She has a personality that shines through ,even after her passing. She has touched a lot of lives already and I have a feeling that she will touch even more lives . She is a sweet lil precious angel now ,up in the sky with God taking care of her.I may not have ever met you Lily but you have really made a strong impact on my everyday life. I am a big time child abuse advocate now. I think that more people need to hear your story ,so that we can wake people up to child abuse being a real everyday problem. I will continue to support Lily & her family through everything.She will never be forgotten & she lives in many hearts across the world now. She touched my life & now I hope you can read about her & let her into your lives. I know I have not met you Lily but I love you to inifinity & beyond baby girl. God Bless The Furneauxs.' Join Lily's face book page,Justice For Lily.http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Justice-for-Lily/178595315488441

"Bipolar Poem"

Bipolar what it means to me, some days are good some are bad,
then some days can be the best that you have ever had
It means sometimes you are up and sometimes your down,
but sometimes your feet can't make it off the ground
One day can be simple and another can be trying,
some days you can smile and others you are crying
The feelings that you have to over come are your's to bare,
when times get so hard you feel as if no one could care
It means sometimes you have so much rage,
then other days you feel like a bird locked in a cage

It means there are days your not at your best,
then there are some days that can be a big test
Some people may not really understand,
then you have others that lend a helping hand
Some days go by so slow ,others to fast,
there are days that you wish would always last
So this is what mean's to have bipolar, to me,
yes it's scary and no fun to have as you can see.
(Written by Angela Baker and yes I have bipolar)

"How Dominick Calhoun touched my life."

Well I was introduced to this story on facebook & It took my breath away knowing the pain that this lil boy had to endure. No child should ever have to deal with this kind of hurt & pain.It sickens me to really try to put myself in his lil shoes.I only wish I could really have taken his pain away.He was  a brave lil boy who had to deal with more pain then some of us in a lifetime. How can anyone do this? Why did'nt his mother  stop this from going on. How can a mother allow this to happen to her child.I as a mother can not evn begin to phathim this.It is so hard to hear everything he went through his last days.Then to have his big brother there watching what happened to him.Then I think of poorTyler and how he must have felt? I wonder how much abuse Tyler had to endure as well. While I can not imagine how scared he must have been watching this man hurt his little brother.This poor lil boy needs to be given to the grandparents ,so they can take care of him.This makes me want to cry.I only pray that Tyler will be able to be back in his families arms again soon.So Dominick & his story has touched me in more ways then one.I also hold my lil girl a lil tighter & do not to get mad at her over silly stuff.I try to be the best mom I can be.I want to take care of my little girl & teach her the right ways of life.How to be loved & to love. I really want to thank Dominick for touching my life.I want to thank the Calhoun's for allowing us to share in their support for their lil superman. You are loved by many more then only those who knew you.We all feel as if we have a little bit of Dominick with us ,watching over us making sure that we are doing our best to prevent & stop child abuse.Thank you lil man for being Our lil Angel. God Bless The Calhoun's & much love to you all.

"I may be gone"

I may be gone but never that far away I'm in the air that your breathe everyday. I'm the rays of sun that shine upon your face
I am the wind that blows all over the place.
I am that warm feeling you feel in your heart
I'm with you always and we well never part.
I can see you,even though you can't see me
I am all around you from the mountains to the sea.
So do not cry for me today for I am still with you
Part of your memories and in everything you do.
I may be gone but,My love for you will never fade away
So continue on your journey until, we meet again some day.
 "Written by Angela M. Baker"

"My Cousin"

She's tough as nails as you can see
she's my cousin and my friend and she means so much to me.
She fights so hard and she is so strong
not much can get to her as she carries on
She's one of the strongest women you will ever meet
You can knock her down but she will get back up on her feet.
Her faith and hope that she carries each day

We love her much more then words can ever say.

"A little poem for you mom."

My eyes are swollen ,my heart is broken as I sit and think of you.
I remember all the good times and the things we use to do.
Missing your voice and just one more time, I would love to hear.
The sound of you telling me ,Angie I love you so sweetly in my ear.
You were my mom and my very best friend.
You were there for everything through thick and thin.
You taught me how to love and you showed me how to care.
I just did not know loosing you would be so hard to bare.
The pain is deep it cuts like a knife.
But,I am so thankful for having you,in my life.
So ,Mom I hope you know how much you meant to me.
You were everything a child could ask for,you were all a mom should be.

Letter to my mom,even though she is passed away.

Dear Mom,
I have really needed you here ,and no one will ever understand the relationship we had.We did not have your basic mother & daughter relationship.We had much more then that,We had a bond that could not break.As my threapist says it best,"It's like a closeness like indentical twins share."We look alike yes but this goes much deeper then that.We were mother & daughter but also best friends & in a sister like way also.We have shared everything together & When you passed on December. 22nd,2005 (part of me died along with you).People may not understand the connection that we had,but it ran deep because we emotionally leaned on one another always.And now there are days that go by ,when sometimes,I feel as if I am not whole anymore.My heart aches with pain ,my soul feels lost ,a pain unbearable, tummy hurts(feels raw),& I just want to talk to you.Why can't I get the answers from you,your so far away and you said you would never leave me.Why can't I find someone to help me ,the way you did ,mom?It's so scary in this great big world & not being able to ask you to help guide me,that has to be the scariest.I do not like trying to do this all on my on.I mean ,it's not your fault ,but I wish I had the answers.It makes me feel as if I am pulling away from other people because ,I am scared to ever get that close to anyone ,for they may be taken away too.I thought our bond would last even through your passing but I feel so lost.I know that I have to learn how to love myself ,as much as you loved me but not sure how to do it mom.I am only praying that as I write this letter to you ,Thats maybe your watching me & reading it yourself.It is the only hope ,I have left that we will always have our bond.I remember you always taught me to Love ! That's one thing I have that I will always have of you,is the ability to love & care for others.I thank you for that lesson and all the lesson's and advice given to me.I have days that I can smile & put on a happy face when really deep down ,I am crying on the inside.I try to explain to others how much I miss you ,but Mom I really do not think they can even come close to knowing.I look to you for everything & every answer & now what do I do ,since your no longer here for me to talk to.We use to talk every day & at least 4 or 5 times a day ,If not maybe more.We were always there for each other ,no matter what it was or what time of day it was.I remember calling you at 2 am sometimes and vise versa.We always had one another to lean on & now I am alone ,in that.I miss you so bad mom,It's December and thus far I have done a good job on fixing up the house,getting it ready for Christmas.I am keeping my self so busy ,and trying not to let myself get depressed this time.You were always so big on having family togetherness and on making it a great Christmas.I have been trying to do more with Taylor ,as I have noticed she 's growing up on me to quick.She's so beautiful,caring & sweet.She loves you and she misses you too lots.She always says'Grammy was always so good to me .And you see I know that you were a great woman ,so many people have said that to me.I am glad you were my mom and showed me how to love.But,If you can mom ,I need a sign from you.I just need to know that you can hear me.I pray that God let's you show me some kind of a sign.I also thank God everyday for letting you be my mom.I love you with every beat of my heart & every ounce of my soul!I will always miss you until the day we meet again.

Missing you, Poem to my mom.

Missing you hurts more then words ever could say,
I wake up and try to make it through ,each and everyday.
Missing you I feel like we are worlds apart,
Your in Heaven now but forever remain in my heart.
Missing you I have shed a river of tears,
Still can not believe it has been so many years.
Missing you is sometimes just to hard to bare,
I will always think of the memories we were so lucky enough to share.
Missing you I have lost my mother and my best friend,
And I will continue to miss you til my days here on earth end.
Missing you has brought me a lot of hurt and pain,
The one thing I hold onto is that one day we will meet up again.

Written by Angela Baker

"Holidays with out you"

Holidays with out you ,are very hard to endure,
you made things so special ,so sweet and so pure.
I miss all the memories we made when you were here,
 now it hurts so bad  not to have you near.

Holidays with out you,are not the same,
Some are good ,but some bring nothing but pain.
I try to go on with a smile on my face,
No matter what I do ,it's you I can not replace.

Holidays with out you,make me want to cry,
Not sure why God needed you,hard to understand why.
Maybe it's because he knew you were a good soul,
Does he know it left part of my heart ,with a hole.


Holidays with out you ,seem so hard to bare,
and when I need some strength ,I say the Lord's prayer.
Praying he will hear me and carry me through ,
so I can make it during this holiday, living with out you.

 Written by: Angela Darden Bake
 Written for Brenda Marie Todd Darden (My Mother)
  "02-04-1954 til 12-22-05 May You Rest In Peace"
Holidays with out you,sometimes make me scared,
I just want to feel the way you loved me and how much you cared.
Wishing for only a moment in time to feel that way once more,
Knowing I can never be as whole as I was before.

In Loving Memory Of My Mother!

My Mom ,she was not only my mom,she was my best friend.She passed away way to early ,she was 51 yrs old ,when she passed.My Mom on Sunday night ,December 19th 2005,had a stroke,while driving home from work.She,had made it to her street corner and ,the car bumped into the median.Some neighbors ,tried to get her out of the car,and revive her.Then ,she was transported by ambulance to a hospital.By the time her ambulance had gotten to the hospital,"(I had already received The phone call,no one wants to hear. )"......And I was there by the time the ambulance was there .They said she had to be transported by another ambulance and,then she had another stroke .This one was massive ,and sent an anyerisim to her brain(Blood Clot).She was then put into surgery to release fluid in her brain.My mom was then placed on life support .As,we all cried ,denied,and prayed harder then ever,she lay in a hospital bed unresponsive.We would all go in the room and begged her to make a movement,'she did' .The doctors said it was normal movement,but deep in my heart I know my mom moved around to tell us goodbye!So,on December22nd,Thursday,we had to say our goodbyes to her.I could not believe ,that I was gonna have to walk into a room where my mom lay,and say Goodbye ! They had to take her off life support,and that was a very sad day for me,my sister,and all our family &friends.We all had to say let her go,So that God could keep her and take care of her."It was her time to go",I just kept telling myself.This was a very hard time for us all but, "we knew prayers would help ."We had to bury her on 'December26th,2005',a day after Christmas."Well this is what happen to us and our family.We just hope that by sharing this story," it will help others that are going through a rough time right now."So,thank you for reading this and May God Bless You And Yours!

We really need to take a stand

Please everyone read the statistics and you will see why we need to be a voice for those whom can not speak for them selves. I have been on Fb for a little while . I was introduced to some of the saddest cases of child neglectt & abuse  that it boggles my mind. How can you hit your child or make them suffer. These beautiful little innocent babies & children are going through this everyday ,somewhere in the world a child is being abused as we speak.I mean it is really unbelieveable that more people are not taking notice to all the injustice's .I have read over stories ,that will literally break your heart. But I choose to take a stand & try my best to honor these lil angels. They deserve their justice. So I am asking you ,Are you gonna take this sitting down ignoring it ,or are you gonna take a stand with me & others who want to make a change. Let's help the families of the victims & stand uup for them.God Bless them all.My heart goes out to you & I only hope ,that I can some how help.http://www.prevent-abuse-now.com/stats.htm

Bipolar

Bipolar is not the easiest thing to have to deal with.I know this for a fact because,I have been diagnosed with it since the age of 22. I have been hospitalized for it 3 different times. It is scary at times because ,you worry about things that have yet to even come.For example: I worry about the weather days in advance,not sure why but I always think the worst of everything.I sometimes have racing thoughts as well. Then there are the anxiety attacks & panic attacks. Some days are easier to deal with then others. Sometimes ,you have days of pure mania .Example: Racing thoughts ,talking fast,& I always clean when I am having these days.I am OCD also.This has been a problem all of my life.I try my best to control my feelings & emotions but some days you just can not control it. I am not sure how many of you can relate.I just had to share my thoughts on bipolar & I am hoping for some responces.Thank you all for taking the time to read this.God Bless You All !